Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:16
They say that life is not always as it seems, but what if that reality hits you harder than a freight truck coming down a steep hill.
Disillusion: to free from illusion also: to cause to lose naive faith and trust. (Merriam Webster Dictionary)
If your illusion is something that you’ve held close to your heart, becoming DIS-Illusioned, can be heart breaking.
When that friend you thought was on your side, goes behind your back and betrays you, when you expected your life to go one way but it turns out another or when you end up with a debt on that investment you thought would bring you a profit… there are a myriad of ways that we can be disillusioned.
In these places, where confusion sets in and you realise you had been naive at some level, its easy to lose faith- in yourself, in humanity or in God.
But God is never disillusioned. He saw it all before you were even born. Even though that thing side-swiped you and caught you off guard, He saw it coming. Perhaps, in hindsight, you can see how He prepared you for it, warned you of it, or just buffered you from its impact.
Not everyone will bounce back from experiences of disillusionment. A capacity to handle these circumstances are often built out of previous disappointment or low expectations. But when your world turns out to be not as it seems, discouragement and despair can set in. So what can we do in these times of being acquainted with a new reality? Here are three tips:
- Dare to Believe. At times like this, believing again can be risky. You risk putting your heart out on the line again just after its been broken. Its like being caught in a rip on the ocean and feeling it pulling you under but coming through. Going back into the water is a necessary part of you overcoming your fear of the sea. You need to swim again just as much as you need to believe again, for in the believing, there is hope. Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 19:12 Life giving experiences are birthed when you believe again.
- Trust in God. To the One who saw your every moment before you were even born, you need to place your heart. I remember coming to a place in my life where I realised that it wasn’t as it seemed. I read this verse and realised that even though this situation was a new discovery to me, it was never a new thing to God. He knew it was coming all along and He knows what’s coming next.
- Proceed with Caution. For there is a right time and procedure to every purpose, though a man’s misery weighs heavily upon him. Ecclesiastes 8:6. Even though your misery weights heavily on you, because of disillusion, its extra important to move forward with wisdom. Having people around you who can give you perspective and wisdom, is important. Disillusion brings about a sense of confusion, as your eyes are open to your new reality, you can start to question your judgment and discernment. Having people around who can show you what you’re not seeing is what community is all about. Healthy, loving people are important in your journey of recovery.
Becoming Disillusioned is hard because you start to see what you didn’t see before. As God unveils your eyes to what He ways saw, trust Him with your heart. Put your heart into His hands as He guides you along the steady, slow path of recovery. He will bring to light what needs to be brought to light, but in that journey of discovery, know that you will grow into new levels of wisdom and expertise.